A Walk with Yoshi and a Trip to the Grocery Store

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     Today was a good day. The weather is perfect and I am alive. Yoshi and I went for a walk around the block and I went to the grocery store. I bought too much food for one person especially considering that I am doing Chemo tomorrow and my appetite after Thursday is going to be nonexistent. 
    
     I did buy several different types of beverages to have on hand because, after the steroids wear off, even water tastes terrible for about 2 weeks and dehydration becomes a real problem. I do live with one of my adult sons, the oldest. He is almost 31. He will eat some of the food I bought but we really have different tastes in food. 

      I wore my wig today because I went to Sun Fresh and I didn't want to run into anyone I know and be bald and an obvious cancer patient. If people don't know me or haven't seen me in awhile, they will just think my straight-hair wig is my hair. They might even think it looks good. I think it looks weird because my hair is definitely not straight. I look at myself in the mirror and see only a wig. 

      I felt self-conscious at the grocery store not because I was wearing a wig but because I was one of the few people at the grocery store wearing a face mask. As someone with asthma who is also going through Chemotherapy, I really shouldn't even be out in public exposing myself to Coronovirus but some of these Quarantine Days seem so long.  Other people not wearing masks is not good for me.
     
      My prognosis is excellent which is encouraging but I don't even look like myself right now. Will I find myself when this is all over? Will I recognize myself in the mirror again?

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